Wednesday, May 13, 2015

next chapter

People tend to compare their lives to books. In this analogy, the years represent the chapters. However, in life it keeps on going whereas in books you can flip back to your favorite chapters, the juicy spots. In life, it's only the memories you can go back to and it's all in your mind. The mind though seems to always pick the best spots to go back to as well. The ones where big events happened or ones with people who are no longer in your life for whatever reason. That's where our minds get to the best of us. These special memories bring back all sorts of emotions.

Another difference in the human life and books is we can't skip the scary or bitter parts. In life, we have to deal with the monsters on the next page. We face hard obstacles, go through struggling times, but the best part about life is that it gets better. Books are that way too. They start out a lot like birth, just figuring out the storyline, as we keep reading we see the emotions the characters go through but every book has an ending. Whether good or bad the book, like our lives ends. Was our book satisfying? Was our book worth reading?

OF COURSE! Why would you ask yourself such a silly question? Well actually that makes sense too. Sometimes we feel stuck in the one horrible part of our book. We think that the struggle won't ever end but that isn't true! It rained forty days and nights during the flood and they made it to the end! The Israelites wandered around the wilderness for sixty or so years but still Joshua and Caleb were able to go to the Promise Land. Right now, you may wish you could skip this chapter or go back to a previous one. This may seem to be the absolute worst part of your life but it will get better. There will be a rainbow at the end of the flood or a Promised Land after all that wandering.

Hold tight to the good memories to get you through the bad ones but don't get consumed in the fire of your thoughts. We need to move on to the next chapter. We need to open our eyes from the hurt and see what God has planned for us. We need to find our rainbow. This happens now. It's time for the next chapter.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Another chapter in the books

At the end of this week, I will be officially D O N E with my freshman year of college. It seems like just yesterday I was starting high school or kindergarten for that matter. This year has been quite the challenge but it has also been one of the best years of my life. I have made life friends, started the way to my future, and grown as a person both spiritually and emotionally.

Over the course of the year, I have helped create a new sorority on our campus, become a cheerleader for the fall semester, and spread my wings a little. These tasks have not been easy for me but overall they have shaped who I am growing to be. These things have also influenced my friend choices. Being a Christian at a non-Christian school can be rough. It's hard to find the right friends, but through my activities God has lead me to meet some amazing people.

It's crazy to think that my life has changed so much in a year but it sure has. Big things have happened in such litter time, both good and bad. As I mentioned I helped start a sorority. This was a huge accomplishment and a challenge. We now have nine members and won the best greek award at the awards night, The President's Cup. We also are looking to be absorbed by a national sorority soon and it looks like it could happen with in the next year!

Another big change was my decision to try out for cheerleading. This is something I would have never imagined myself to be but I'm thankful for the opportunity to try it. The coach has been very patient and understanding which makes it a little easier and my teammates are also encouraging. They always invite each other to do thing together and it helps me to feel like I'm apart of the team.

This year I also cut my hair short, well I think it's short. It's shoulder length. This was a spur of the moment decision but I'm happy with it. It's easier to maintain and makes getting ready quicker. This year around the same time as the haircut, my face went numb... yeah numb. Like when you get a shot at the dentist. This happened on the way home from a meeting one night, I was about to get off at the exit that takes me home on and I was on the phone with my best friend when my face all of a sudden went numb. It is by far the weirdest thing that has happened to me so far. Well one of the weirdest. When I got home I was scared and told my parents what had happened. Mom immediately called my doctor who told us to go to the emergency room. Well they don't know exactly why my face is numb but we did find out from this experience that I am pre-diabetic. This is both very sad and shocking for me because it doesn't really make sense. However, I am now on a new diet and have completely cut out soft drinks. Over time, it won't be as bad, but being in the middle of it currently is a little bit of an obstacle. I am no longer like other college students who can eat and drink what they want, but that's okay. I don't know why, but God does and He has a plan.

Like I said, this first year of school has been a hard challenge but the memories and friendships I have made will last forever. Even though I have been through some tough changes life moves on and season change, even if we aren't ready. The most exciting thing about change is, it's something new, an adventure. And boy, I am ready for summer to begin and to take on a new adventure.