Wednesday, December 30, 2015


Well 2016 sure did creep up on me.... A few weeks ago I decided that at the first of the year I would challenge myself by fasting from all types of social media for 21 days, (see pending social media fast for more details). As most of you know, I am addicted to twitter , instagram, and snapchat. I also really enjoy Facebook creeping and pinning random little things that will never happen in my life.
So heres the rules:

1. Absolutely no social media for 21 days. So, starting on Friday after the ball drops I will delete all my social media apps except Facebook messenger and my sorority stuff. I'm keeping these two because I have to know sorority dates, events, and meetings and this is the only way to do so (besides, I don't really use it unless someone post important info) and Facebook messenger is staying because I need it for my dog/babysitting business. A lot of my costumers contact me this way and I don'y want to miss a job opportunity. Oh, and I'll also have to check emails too when school starts back, but that isn't really social media anyways.

2.  Begins January 1st, 2016. Of course I'll most likely post one last picture on instagram explaining my fast with this blog link attached but after it is posted, ALL the apps will be gone.

3. Ends on January 22nd, 2016. This is the day I will re-download all the apps.

4. Focusing on God more and others. every time I get the erg to download my apps back, I will be turning to my Bible or finding a way to help someone else. This month is going to be SUPER busy anyways so who really has time for this social media?!?!?

Things going on during my fast:
-New Year's Eve party @ my house
-Samantha (my soon to be sister in law!!!) bachelorette weekend
-Austin's wedding (super close family friend)
-My bestie guy friend is going to basic training
-School starts back...

I think that is all. Leave comments or questions, I'd love to answer anything that you may want to ask! I am very excited about this but also anxious.... Also, any suggestions of things to focus on doing instead would be greatly appreciated.

Sunday, December 13, 2015

Pending Social Media Cleanse

  In January I plan to do a social media fast to focus more on God. I have decided it'll last 21 days, because that's how long it takes to break a habit. So no worries, I'll be back in time for the wedding. 
  I've heard of this before, but never really considered doing one. I was reading an article called 6 habits of Christians. It hit me then how much time I really do spend on social media. I check it when I first wake up, throughout the day when I'm bored, and spend hours at night pinning, tweeting, and liking endless photos. What if I focused all this time on God? 
  So starting in Janurary, every time I feel the erg to send a tweet or post an amazing Instagram picture, I'll head to my Bible instead. I'm hoping that this will be helpful. I know if I follow through, it will make for a much better life. I obsess over ever social media post. I get excited when I get a certain amount of likes or if I'm snapchatting a humorous video. However, I am very interested to see how my relationship with God grows. 
  During my fast, I will be checking only emails, text messages, phone calls, soroity post (so I know about meetings & events), and Facebook messenger for my dog, baby, and house sitting customers.
  Please wish me luck and pray for me that I stay devoted to my decisions. 

Monday, December 7, 2015

•Choose thankful•

I can't believe I've been so busy that I missed blogging about my favorite holiday: Thanksgiving. This year was definitely one to remember! We did our normal tradition like always but this year my good friend Christain got to join us. She's on of my closest friends that I've made at college and she is from out of state. She wasn't able to go home for thanksgiving because of timing and prices and I couldn't let her spend thanksgiving at the cafe so I invited her to join in on my families festivities. 

Like always, we set out to my grandma's (dad's mom) house early on thanksgiving morning. We usually all get there around noon and we have a nice lunch that she prepares. This year, I helped set the table, get the food out, and pass out pies. We also took some family photos for our Christmas card, as part of tradition. (I am a hard core stick-to-the-tradition person). 

After my dad's side is finished up, we all pack up in the car and head to my aunt and uncle's house for dinner. This side has a lot more children to take up the tables, fill the room with noise, and there is much much laughter. Before dinner even started the fun of the evening began with sliding down big hills, dancing to today's biggest hits, and then eating of course! Topped off with even more pictures. 
This is the only picture I have on my phone HAHA me and my baby cousin Will making silly faces. 

Anyways, I have so much to be thankful for after all, it is my favorite holiday for a reason. 

Can't go back, but you can look

As my third semester of college comes to a slow end, I have been reflecting over who I am, what I've learned, and where I am heading. Deep, I know. 

Who I am or am becoming: this semester has been very challenging for me and I'm not certain why. I started off the semester as a cheerleader, but those days ended faster than they started. After that, it all was a downward spiral. I'm not sad about it at all, everything happens for a reason & I was terrified to fly. And I know my mother was scared too. 

This semester I also took the hardest classes I've taken in a lonnnnnggg time. I've learned how to memorize and study harder than before, and PLAN. I've become a perfectionist. I plan everything. But it has made me who I am, and I enjoy planning out my days, weeks, and months. I carry my monogrammed Lilly Pulitzer planner with me almost everywhere. If I lost it, I wouldn't be able to function. Even with my planning obsession, I still find the time to majorly procrastinate. This semester I have been the worst about it. I don't know if it was because I didn't like my classes or if I just didn't really care but some how I managed to come out on top, with mostly A's & B's. 

This semester I became a teacher. I officially declared my major as child growth & learning aka elementary education with a minor in marketing because I love marketing and it could someday be useful. I am very excited to start next semester as an eduction major & see where my journey takes me. 

I've learned: life isn't always easier. In fact, it's hard. And most of the time you want to ignore all your responsibility and curl up in a ball, cry, or watch Netflix. I've learned that somedays you just need a coffee from Starbucks, an iccee from speedway, and chili cheese tots from sonic. And that its okay to do what you love. 

Where I'm headed: I don't know exactly but I'm on my way to be a teacher, get my masters, and one day have my own classroom. I also decided this semester that in the summer of 2016 I will be headed to hondurous for a week with my church family to spread God's word and I'm beyond excited for this adventure. Another exciting thing that I'm going to start over winter break is Bible journaling. Lately, I've been putting off studying my Bible and I think that journaling will help me to get back on track with where I want to be Spiritually. 


'Tis the season // for finals

As everyone knows, in college we go through finals to test the knowledge and to reflect on the course that we just had. Today, I took three of my five total finals. And today was hard. 

9am Spanish exam and I think I'm going to fail. I get into the classroom, worried of what the final might reveal. She hands us the packet of tests and it's thick, 17 pages. I think I'm going to fail. I automatically am thinking of how to tell my parents when I look down and realize, hey it's not so bad. 

1 pm, it's history time. "No big deal", I've got this one nailed. I've made my flash cards & studied them a hundred times. I made everyone i encounter quiz me. I even had a study/lunch date with my daddy to ensure that I will pass. Only my grade will tell for sure, but I've got this one nailed. 

6:30pm. I'm shaking in my shoes. This is the one I'm most scared of. There was an 80 question study guide, the test was cumulative. As I walked up the steep steps of memorial, I saw my classmates walking down and around upstairs. I asked them how it was and they replied "just like the study guide". I was instantly calmed but I had help with the study guide. When I walked in and took my seat, I glanced down at my test. The first question was the exact same first question of the study guide. Instant relief. At the end of the test, there were 4 bonus questions, aced them all. I am now waiting my results for all of the tests.  Pray for me. 

Only one more final between me & Christmas!!!! Fa la la la la, Rach girl

Friday, November 13, 2015

Things first graders taught me

As an "education major" (this is in quotations because I'm not officially declared....:/) I have to do observation hours or as Cumberland calls them, field experience credit. This semester I have been so blessed to be able to choose what school I wanted to go to so of course, I chose the elementary school I went to as a kid. I got paired with some amazing teachers too! But the best experience I've gotten was from Mrs. Gammon's first grade class. I adore those children and I've learned so much from being with them.

-sometimes you need to pause and have a dance break. I love this concept. A student's attention span is very short and everyone could use some good exercise so why not have a dance party?? These dance breaks are usually short, about 5 minutes, but on Fridays the students get to have a 15 minute dance break as they pack up as a reward. 

-first graders tell all. There are absolutely no secrets in first grade! These  precious gems have spilled so much about their parents and friends to me as I'm sure they do to everyone. One story I particularly loved was from a little girl while playing a board game last week. It was a game called chunks. In the game, there are two different colored blocks and the object is to pair one yellow block and one green to create a word. The little gir created the word "pills". When asked about her word she continued to tell both Mrs.Gammon and myself that her dad takes pills. So Mrs. Gammon asked her why he took the pills to which she responded, "He takes them when he gets mad.". Crazy kids. 

-first graders make friends fast. Today, I got the privilege to eat lunch with my jewels. They all faught over who I was going to sit with. I also went to recess and boy that was something! I was asked to swing, after that I had about 6 girls follow me around everywhere I went. By the end of the day, I had made 20 new friends without even trying.

-first graders are full of love. These students are so lovable and give love right back. They hug you often and reach for your hand as if you're their mom. It touched my heart to be loved by these children. 

-first grade is messy but fun. Everytime I look around the classroom, it's a mess. Wether it be crayons on the floor or a ton of scrap paper on a desk, first graders are a mess! However, there is never a dull moment. 

Overall, observing first grade has been on of the greatest experiences I've taken. It has shown me how to be a great teacher and a better friend. I've learned a lot for Mrs. Gammon as well as the students. 

Thanks for everything & a special thank you to all the teachers out there-- y'all rock!!!
Xoxo, R. 

Thursday, November 12, 2015

An open letter to the person I use to know

You were once really close to me. We laughed together, cried, told stories, and took many crazy adventures. We grew as people together until the day we grew apart. And when this sad spilt happened, you took part of my heart. 

Now we're becoming adults, off in different places. Sometimes when I'm alone, driving, or listening to music I feel your memory ligner in my minds empty spaces. Your face is smiling back at mine, laughing together like old times. Oh how I wish we were like that again but darling the drift may be good. 

As we go on different journeys, I still often think of you and how our lives would be if we were still together today. However, I have grown up since then. Maturing and getting wise, I long to be silly sometimes but I know without you is probably for the best. 

I hope you're doing well. I just want you to know, I miss our times together and hope that maybe one day that we can be together again. Much love for now. So long old pal.

Wednesday, October 21, 2015


And Also over fall break, I went to Dollywood for the first time, as mentioned in my pervious post. We planned this for months but it ended up being something that we just went with. 

On the way there we jammed out to Taylor Swift, or course, and some throwbacks to the 90's. We got there around noon and rode the little train shuttle thing from the parking lot to the ticket booth. We bought our tickets and hit the rides! 
The first ride we came to was a huge wooden roller coaster named the thunderhead. The lines were short since it was a weekday and we basically got on as soon as we walked up. After this ride, I was basically done for the day. It hurt my entire body and it scared the mess outta me. Needless to say I didn't ride any more roller coasters, I stuck with the "kid" rides. 
After the kids rides, I had the genius idea that we should ride a water ride in October. Keep in mind, it was about 60-65 degrees but my friends agreed. WE WERE SOAKED! And I was miserable but we still had a blast!! It was a great time & I would love to go back! 


Have you ever been to Alabama? Yeah. Well I have too, but this past time it was completely different. The trip itself was different. I went on a road trip to see my very best friend & I drove! In high school, I would have never even considered driving myself and here I was not only driving myself, but also a good friend and my nervous puppy. The total trip there was four hours but the drive was so worth it because I GOT TO SEE NY BEST FRIEND. 

At the beginning of August, Jessica moved to Alabama to start school. For those of you who know us, this was tragic. We are hardly ever seen apart and now we live four hours away. It has been one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. Not having my best friend by my side physically has been so challenging and every day there is something new. Back in the day, I would just go to her house whenever I wanted or was sad but now it's not that easy. So this trip meant a lot. 

Saturday, we arrived around noon. I was so excited to see her it was crazy! 
This picture was actually after she gave me my birthday present but it basically sums up how I felt all weekend. When we got there, her dad (which is like my second dad) had brought us doughnuts and had fresh coffee. Then she toured us through her new house and we got settled in. After the house tour we took a tour around her new school, which was beautiful. 
On campus, we met up with her brother (another great friend of mine) and afterwards headed to the local mall to get pretzels, lemonade, and chickflia. Later that evening, her mom (basically my other mother) had made us a home cooked meal. We laughed and caught up and shared stories around the table for a long time. When story time was over, we headed to boo at the zoo, which come to find out is actually for little kids but we made the most of it because we were together. 
We also toured downtown at night because according to Jess, that's when it is the prettiest. Unfortunately, I did not capture the beauty of the lights on the water but it really was gorgeous. 

On Sunday, we got to visit where they go to church. It was a very small congregation but it was lovely all the same. After service, we headed to a local buffet and man it was delious! Once lunch ended, it was time to head home. This was probably the most depressing point. After Mackenzie plugged the address into the gps and I backed out of the driveway, big tears welled in my eyes (as they are now) because I don't know how long it will be until I see her again and I didn't want to leave my bestie behind. 

Everything happens for a reason though and I cannot wait to see you again soon Jess! I love you with my whole heart! 
Xoxo, Rach 💜

Thursday, October 15, 2015


In life there are a lot of "firsts". Like your first date or your first kiss or your first big girl job. And then of course there are also little firsts like first time to camp or first time waxing your eye brows. 

The past two weeks have been full or firsts for me. Some bigger, some smaller, all equally as awesome in their own little way. Two weeks ago, I had wiped the bottom of a toddler for the first time. This wasn't the most fun thing in the world but it's still a first & I know it's just the road to many, many more. That same day, I went swing dancing for the first time. This was a little bit more adventurous. I really have never danced for fun like that before and it was something I would definitely like to do again. 

I also recently drove myself and a good friend down to Alambama. This was our first roadtrip and I know it won't be the last. It was quite the experience to drive four hours as the adults. I had to choice of when to stop, where to stop, and the music. On the way back, we got into a huge traffic jam which was also a first for me. I mean, I've sat in them before but never as the driver with a nervous dog in the car. It was one for the books! I can't wait to take on more road trips in the future. 

The last "first" thing that happened to me in the past couple months was my first trip to Dollywood. It was SO much fun! I have to admit though, after riding the first roller coaster I was done and was more the happy to move to the "carnival" type rides and food!  

Overall, these "first" have each taught me a new lesson. I've added notches to my belt of life and I'm thrilled to see what "first" will be next! 

Adventure is out there--- xoxo, Rach

Thursday, October 8, 2015


  For the past month or so, my mother and I have been doing weekly Bible studies on Thursdays. Usually one of us picks a short book or a chapter to focus on for the week and we sit down on Thursdays with our Bibles, notes, and coffee to discuss what we each discovered in the material. I always learn something for myself and through listening to her but this week a particular word stood out to me: Long-suffering. 

  This is a word we see often throughout the Bible. In some versions they use patience but personally I really like long-suffering. The definition of long-suffering is: enduring injury, trouble, or provocation long and patiently. To me, long-suffering is a more in depth word for patience. The word itself explains its meaning, to suffer long. A lot of times when we think of patience we just think of having to wait for something without complaining, whether it be a short or long period of time but the word long-suffering indicts that we will suffer in different areas for a long time. 

  I loved this weeks Bible study with mom. It was over the fruit of the Spirit. As Christians, we are to wake up and thing of these things daily: Love, joy peace, long-suffering, gentleness, meekness, and self control. This is so challenging to always be all of these things, but my goal from now on is to wake up and love that today God gave me another day to live and show His love to others. I will try my best to have joy in all circumstances. I will pray for peace in the whirlwind of life. I know I will suffer long until Jesus comes back because I am a Christian and we suffer in the world as we struggle inside our own bodies with sin and in the world. It's like a constant war. The battle is between giving into sin and to withstand the temptation and lean on Jesus. I will do my best to be gentle with others, to be meek, and to have self control when it comes to favorite sins, as well as with being a diabetic. It is a daily challenge to chose the right choices for my body physically and Spiritually. 

Galatians 6:9- "And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart."

  Often times, we grow weary in our lives and give up our hope but we are to be long-suffering and to wait for in time we will reap from our good deeds. 

Stay faithful-- xoxo, Rachel 

Friday, October 2, 2015


The Tennessee Supreme Court came to Cumberland this Wednesday. They held three trials. The first two sessions were for high schoolers all over the county. There were a ton of schools from Nashville, Murfreesboro, and other surrounding cities. My high school even brought a group, which was cool. The third session was for the college students. It was supposedly the most important or something or another. It was about trying to reopen a case for a man that was put on death penalty back in 1988! They are just now trying to claim him as mentally insane and get him off death row. The whole time however, the lawyers were talking about another case too. It was great that they chose Cumberland to hold the trials at, but I was so confused the whole time! My friend was having to tell me most of what was going on, lol. After the cases were over, my friends and I went to sonic and celebrated half priced blasts. Sooooo yummy. I love ice cream & friends too of course ;). 

Friday, September 25, 2015

Blake Shelton Adventure

As many of you are aware, Blake Shelton had a free concert Wednesday night & blocked off most if not all of music row in Nashville. Well of course if you say "free concert" I'm done. I saw the big announcement Monday and made arrangements to go with Lauren (who always adventures with me to Nashville on a whim) & my mother (who does just about anything for me). 

So when Wednesday finally arrived, I was beyond excited. I was already dressed in my outfit & I helped Lauren with hers. We met mom and headed down town. I thought finding parking would be hard and traffic would be terrible but honestly it wasn't at all! We found a spot about half a mile away-which sounds far but hey we got in our steps for the day! 

We arrived about an hourish early and got decent seats... Or I mean a place to stand. Blake finally came out and sang all of my favorites: neon light, Austin, honey bee and that's not even all! It was such an awesome experience and I'm glad I got to spend it with Lauren and my mom. 

Afterwards, we grabbed pizza at one of my favorite restaurants and headed back home. It was definitely a night to remember! Thanks for a fabulous free show Blake!!! We love you! 

The scammers gunna scam scam scam

So ever since Taylor Swift announced that her 1989 tour, I've been dying to get tickets. I looked into the day tickets came out but I'm a broke college student and the tickets were extremely expensive. 
The past month, my friends, family, and I have enter every contest the radio stations have put on but no luck. So Thursday when my friend sent me a link on Craigslist, I jumped on it! I called and texted and called again the next morning practically begging for the tickets. Little did I know it was a scam. Needless to say, I paid the guy half of the money & never received my tickets as promised. After work, I tried calling the place he bought the tickets from to see if what he said was true (that the transfer was going to take a long time) and I found out that he lied. The tickets and confirmation number were real but he has used a fake name and took my money. So I tried calling his number again but of course he had disconnected his phone. This has taught me a valuable life lesson. For future reference, if someone you do not know or have not met in person asks you to western union them money, ITS A SCAM. Lesson learned the hard way. Now I'm out my money & my Taylor Swift tickets. 
'Cause the fakers gunna fake, fake, fake and the scammers gunna scam, scam, scam baby I'm just gunna shake, shake, shake, shake it off. Shake it off. 
Xoxo Rach 

Monday, September 14, 2015


It's been 84 years since I've seen my best friend.... okay so maybe it's only been two months.
BUT SHE CAME HOME THIS WEEKEND!!! When I got the text that she was finally back in the same state as me I rushed through my lunch and went to meet her so I could send as much time as possible with her before she had to leave. Saturday we met her at Belk and I may have cried a little when I actually saw her face! She went with us to run some errands and came to see Maggie (our puppy who loves her!). 
Even though I had to work all weekend & she didn't arrive until around noon Saturday, we still managed to squeeze in al our best friend to dos: sleepover, PLL (Pretty Little Lairs), and donut country of course. We spent the whole time giggling, shedding a few tears, and catching up on things we missed while being away. Let me tell you, living in a different state as your best friend might possibly be the hardest thing to do yet millions of people have to do it all the time for various reasons. Also being apart has taught me that we are both insane when we're not together. Okay so maybe we're insane either way but I sent & receive the strangest text messages. 
Overall, it was a great weekend with my best friend ever & I can't wait until I get to see you again (which is t-minus 2 weeks!!!!). 

Saturday, August 29, 2015

First Week Back

On Wednesday I started my sophmore year of college. Crazy to think how fast time is passing by! Already it has been so busy!! Leading up to the first day, my car went to the shop on Monday and I had a lunch with the Alpha Sigma Tau ladies who are helping get our new chapter set up. Tuesday was just work and laundry. Wednesday was the first day!!!!! Man oh man, I am so glad to be back. I am already very stressed but hey that's just how it works right? :) The first day was filled with friends and professors reading us the syllabus. This year is so much different from last. I have friends on the first day! Wednesday, we went through all of our class until 2pm, then we had convocation and I am part of the choir so we sang the Alma Mater at it. It was my first time singing at it but it was so fun! We also got a new president, so that's exciting!! After convocation, some of my close friends and I took pictures and had a first day lunch/dinner at chickflia. It was so good to catch up and just be back in good ole Lebanon. After our meal, we headed back to campus. When we got there I had to go to my interview that I had set up with Alpha Sigma Tau which went very well. Thursday things were going well. I only have one class on Tuesdays and Thursday at its in the afternoon so it's perfect! Well when I got to school, my car mouth functioned. I was pulling into my spot and it just stopped. So we had to have it towed and now we are justing for a part to get here. Later, my mom's best friend came to pick me up and then I had to go to work. You could say this week has been eventful but it hasn't ended just yet! Friday, I babysat the cutest little boy for eight hours! Yes, eight! I felt like a mom! I loved every minute though! While I was watching the sweet boy, I got a text asking to meet the AST girls in the evening. So immediately after getting off I drove back to Lebanon. When I got there, they told me I was accepted into the sorority!!! This is SO exciting!! I then drove back to Murfreesboro (in my mother's car) to a friend's birthday party.  We went to see War Room. Guys, it is such a good movie!! I highly recommend that you go see it. Saturday (today), had been relaxing. My mom and I went with our church ladies to a ladies day. It was very uplifting. I always feel like I am the youngest lady that attended these but girls, college age is welcome! All ages are welcome!! It is so encouraging to do stuff with these ladies. They teach my and encourage me just by being around them. We needed the day with a celebratory dinner at home with the family (mom, dad, Sam, Samantha, & myself) for my mom's birthday. Her birthday is really later in the week but we decided to do the family dinner early. Present will come later!. I baked a chocolate circle cake with chocolate icing and sprinkles. We put it with vanilla ice cream and it hit the spot. Now time to relax and repeat the same busy schedule Monday.
Until next time stay busy-- xoxo, Rachel

Saturday, July 18, 2015

College: the first year

College. They say it changes a person. They say you find out who you are. They say you meet your life friends. Well when I began my college experience almost a year ago and someone told me these things I would have thought they were insane. What do you mean change? New me? New friends? WHAT?!?!

Looking back now, college has changed me for the better. I have learned that who I was in high school isn't going to be who I am forever. After completing an entire year of college I would say I have learned a lot. I have lost some of who I was but more importantly, I have gained an abundance about who I am suppose to be. I may not know exactly where I am going but I am thankful God has lead me to where I am.

The first year of college was quite the experience. I lived a home (and plan to for the remaining part), I not only joined a sorority but helped create one, I have been on several out-of-my-comfort-zone adventures, and made life long friends that I will always cherish.

I may say the same things in all my blogs, but I know that looking back at my first year of school I have indeed become a better person. I may not have realized this until creeping on some of the people that use to be close friends to me. As i was looking through their Facebook feeds and pictures from their first year of college, I was a little jealous. They all seemed to have much more fun and better life experiences, but you know what? It made me realize that I also had a heck of a year.

Joining a sorority isn't an easy decision. Cumberland only had one when I decided which college to go to and deciding weather or not to join it was going to be tough. Then school started so it was really time to decide what I was going to do, what to join, what to get involved in. That's when one of my best friends and the only person I knew before starting college was thinking about creating her own sorority. I mean come on, having only one isn't even fair. So then began the process of forming a new group. We got it approved by the greek life office and started a recruitment process. In the end, we had seven girl willing and excited about the group. We formatted it after an already existing group that was once on our campus in hopes that someday we would get absorbed. This dreams are now becoming a reality.  This Fall (2015), Tau Sigma Alpha will become Alpha Sigma Tau, the group we wanted to be. It is so surreal that we will be national.

Overall, the first year of college has taught me a lot but I wouldn't change a thing. I am even looking forward to starting my sophomore year here in just about a month!

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

power of change

The power of change is a phrase we often hear but does anyone know exactly how to do it? We tell ourselves all the time that we need to make changes in our lives but do we? The main cause for this is lack of motivation.

P- possibilities
O- openness
W- willing
E- energy
R- readiness

The first letter in power is P. This stands for possibilities, which are endless. First you have to decide what exactly needs to change. Is it your diet, bad habits, or are you needing to get out of a rut? Once you decide what needs to change, you must then decide how you wish to go about this. Remember that change is hard for everyone and that it takes time.

The next step is to be open. Go into your decision with an open mind so that the change will hold. If you're not open minded, the likeliness of you following through are slim. Be open to the new diet or cutting the bad habit. Look at it this way, if you think you want to do it then you have to! My momma always said you can't quit until its over, and that is exactly how change works.

Okay, so like openness once you have decided a plan you must be willing to stick with it. For example, I was told that I have high blood sugar so to fix the problem before it becomes a risk I decided to cut wayyyyyy back on my sugar in take. I stopped drinking soda and went to a less sugar tea. Well I stuck with it for a month and then my willingness died. To keep the willingness alive, seat goals and reward yourself when you meet them. This is a great tactic for just about any change you wish to make. Say if you go a solid week without sugar then the next week treat yourself to half a milkshake or something but don't let this get out of hand. ;)

Before you make a change, realize it takes a lot of energy. You have to monitor the goals you set and make sure that you are indeed sticking to them. It becomes one of the biggest priorities in your life at this point. If you want it to work, you have to put forth the time and energy that it takes to get there.

Lastly, you have to be ready. Now I know that change doesn't always come at the best time or even at a time that we choose but we have to prepare ourselves to make these changes and allow them to come. We must be ready for whatever the obstacle may be.

All in all we must know that we are the ones that control the power needed to make changes in our lives, however we don't have to go through these times alone. If you are struggling ask a friend to pray or to talk with you through it. You may want the cake but you have to practice your self control and not eat it. Good luck to all the changes you wish to make. Remember set goals & stick to them!

*xoxo R

when life makes you a stranger

To someone we are always a stranger. Wether that be to someone just passing by, a friend that use to be close, an ex, or even ourselves, we are always strangers. It hurts the most when it happens to the people we once were close to. Relationships don't always last and friendships often fade but we still long for these people after they are removed from our lives.

At first, you may be okay with no longer being close to these said people. You may believe that you've moved on and have convinced yourself that you are happy without them lingering in the shadows and that your life is somehow better without them in it. Maybe you have moved on and, you no longer wish for them, no longer think of them first and then it hits you like a ton of bricks all at once. 

Maybe it hit you because you went to that one restaurant that meant so much when the relationship was there and it reminds you of the good times, or maybe its a park where you use to hang out all the time, or maybe you see them for the first time in months. In these moments is when you realize that you aren't okay and that you may never be the same. It makes you want to crawl into a dark corner and just cry until you can no longer force tears down your cheeks. And you know what? It is totally acceptable because you take one look at that person, the one you use to share your darkest secrets with and you realize you no longer know anything about them and you've drifted away for a reason. The reasons vary from long distance, different schools, change of direction, new jobs, or simply because both of you have stopped making an effort for the relationship to work... It is a two way street! 

And then you get to wondering and thinking that you seriously don't know this friend anymore. At one time you could name all there favorites and now you're left questioning yourself about the silliest things. Is their favorite color the same? Candy? Ice-cream? These questions you once knew like the back of your hand you no longer have the answers to and it hurts. Looking straight at that person and pretending that you're fine, that you have moved on, that is the hardest part. The world has made you complete strangers to each other and you have to learn to just accept that.

It brings the sting of tears and the heartbreak of losing such a close friend and all you have left is the memories that you made that float around in your head from time to time. However, that person you knew is no longer the same. You are no longer the same person either. And it hurts but time heals wounds and life moves on.

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Rekindled friendship

This semester I started watching Grey's Anatomy on netflix. As many of you know, the show is about a teaching hospital and all the actors are doctors, from interns to attendings they have it all. I didn't know when I decided to start watching the show that I would not only become attached (despite my hate for blood) but also learn so much by the characters. The main character is Meredith Grey. Her mom was also a surgeon and so Meredith basically grew up in the hospital. She is my inspiration for this blog actually. I am now on season seven and Meredith and her best friend Christina Yang have just been through a falling out... well sorta. Christina is going through a tough time and Meredith is trying her best to pull her out of it. This shows true friendship. Meredith and Christina are there for each other no matter what.  "We're friends, real friends, and that means no matter how long it takes, when you finally decide to look back, I'll still be here." - Meredith Grey

Friendship has two sides. Friendship is not always happy. Friendship has its ups and downs but real friends will be there for you no matter what it is. A true friend is your "person". This person or persons will cry with you, encourage you, laugh with you, celebrate with you. They hate the same people no matter how silly the reason. They hold your hand, make late night donut runs, they are the glue that holds you together. But then you have to be there for that person too. Even if they make you so mad you want to cry.

Sometimes being someone's person is the hardest thing to do. They don't always make it easy for you. They might not want to tell you wha exactly is happening to them but even in those circumstances, you are by their side.

Being someone's person includes the following:

-Dance parties
Always be ready to dance away the stress of the situation.

-Late night conversations
Yes, you may have to talk them off the wall at midnight but hey, they'll do it for you too. Sometimes this can be out at lunch, going to grab coffee, or even if they come over and get in bed with you. Be there for them no matter when or where.

-Eating everything in sight
Okay, is this one really even a problem? You say food, I'm in.

-Endless encouragement
This is self explanatory but remember, your person is the best one out there and you probably don't tell them enough how much they mean to you.

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

next chapter

People tend to compare their lives to books. In this analogy, the years represent the chapters. However, in life it keeps on going whereas in books you can flip back to your favorite chapters, the juicy spots. In life, it's only the memories you can go back to and it's all in your mind. The mind though seems to always pick the best spots to go back to as well. The ones where big events happened or ones with people who are no longer in your life for whatever reason. That's where our minds get to the best of us. These special memories bring back all sorts of emotions.

Another difference in the human life and books is we can't skip the scary or bitter parts. In life, we have to deal with the monsters on the next page. We face hard obstacles, go through struggling times, but the best part about life is that it gets better. Books are that way too. They start out a lot like birth, just figuring out the storyline, as we keep reading we see the emotions the characters go through but every book has an ending. Whether good or bad the book, like our lives ends. Was our book satisfying? Was our book worth reading?

OF COURSE! Why would you ask yourself such a silly question? Well actually that makes sense too. Sometimes we feel stuck in the one horrible part of our book. We think that the struggle won't ever end but that isn't true! It rained forty days and nights during the flood and they made it to the end! The Israelites wandered around the wilderness for sixty or so years but still Joshua and Caleb were able to go to the Promise Land. Right now, you may wish you could skip this chapter or go back to a previous one. This may seem to be the absolute worst part of your life but it will get better. There will be a rainbow at the end of the flood or a Promised Land after all that wandering.

Hold tight to the good memories to get you through the bad ones but don't get consumed in the fire of your thoughts. We need to move on to the next chapter. We need to open our eyes from the hurt and see what God has planned for us. We need to find our rainbow. This happens now. It's time for the next chapter.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Another chapter in the books

At the end of this week, I will be officially D O N E with my freshman year of college. It seems like just yesterday I was starting high school or kindergarten for that matter. This year has been quite the challenge but it has also been one of the best years of my life. I have made life friends, started the way to my future, and grown as a person both spiritually and emotionally.

Over the course of the year, I have helped create a new sorority on our campus, become a cheerleader for the fall semester, and spread my wings a little. These tasks have not been easy for me but overall they have shaped who I am growing to be. These things have also influenced my friend choices. Being a Christian at a non-Christian school can be rough. It's hard to find the right friends, but through my activities God has lead me to meet some amazing people.

It's crazy to think that my life has changed so much in a year but it sure has. Big things have happened in such litter time, both good and bad. As I mentioned I helped start a sorority. This was a huge accomplishment and a challenge. We now have nine members and won the best greek award at the awards night, The President's Cup. We also are looking to be absorbed by a national sorority soon and it looks like it could happen with in the next year!

Another big change was my decision to try out for cheerleading. This is something I would have never imagined myself to be but I'm thankful for the opportunity to try it. The coach has been very patient and understanding which makes it a little easier and my teammates are also encouraging. They always invite each other to do thing together and it helps me to feel like I'm apart of the team.

This year I also cut my hair short, well I think it's short. It's shoulder length. This was a spur of the moment decision but I'm happy with it. It's easier to maintain and makes getting ready quicker. This year around the same time as the haircut, my face went numb... yeah numb. Like when you get a shot at the dentist. This happened on the way home from a meeting one night, I was about to get off at the exit that takes me home on and I was on the phone with my best friend when my face all of a sudden went numb. It is by far the weirdest thing that has happened to me so far. Well one of the weirdest. When I got home I was scared and told my parents what had happened. Mom immediately called my doctor who told us to go to the emergency room. Well they don't know exactly why my face is numb but we did find out from this experience that I am pre-diabetic. This is both very sad and shocking for me because it doesn't really make sense. However, I am now on a new diet and have completely cut out soft drinks. Over time, it won't be as bad, but being in the middle of it currently is a little bit of an obstacle. I am no longer like other college students who can eat and drink what they want, but that's okay. I don't know why, but God does and He has a plan.

Like I said, this first year of school has been a hard challenge but the memories and friendships I have made will last forever. Even though I have been through some tough changes life moves on and season change, even if we aren't ready. The most exciting thing about change is, it's something new, an adventure. And boy, I am ready for summer to begin and to take on a new adventure.