Saturday, May 13, 2017

Calm in a storm //

One year ago around this time, my right side of my face went completely numb. After visiting the emergency room, multiple doctors, and a chiropractor I was informed that the facial numbness was a nerve, similar to bells pausey but without the pause. During these multitude of doctor visits, we were also informed that my sugar levels were high. While at the emergency room they found sugar in my urine & told me I needed to get it checked out by my regular doctor. So I had my first of many A1C tests done. My levels came back as pre-diabetic at first but the second time my A1C was a little higher. My mom then decided it was time to see an endocrinologist to get to the bottom of the issue.
In the fall, I began seeing yet another doctor. He suggested that it was a good idea to have a fasting glucose tolerance test done (this is a horrible experience). 
After receiving these results, my endocrinologist diagnosed me with lipodystrophy. This is a very rare disease that affects the fat tissue in your body. So in simple terms, I have fat growing on my organs rather than where they're suppose to be. This is the cause of my diabetes (which I'm now declared as type one), my high cholesterol, and my other many issues to come. 
As of now, I'm only feeling joint pains from where the fat will sometimes build on my joints and cramp up but other than that I feel pretty good. I am on 2 medicines as of now and have to take my sugar twice a day. My family & I are choosing to look at the brightest picture possible through this storm but we know it is all part of God's big picture. We are praising Jesus that we finally have answers to the lingering questions and that we have wonderful doctors who take my health & my parents numerous questions so seriously. The Maker is such a calm presence in the time of a troubling storm.

Thank you for all your prayers & happy lipodystrophy awareness day. 
Xoxo, R. 

Saturday, January 23, 2016

Social media fast // the first week

So as of New Year's Day, I began my social media fast. It's been really hard and I don't think I'll make it 21 days. I changed the rules just a tad too, but I have gone mostly four days so far without social media. I deleted my Facebook & twitter apps but I do check Facebook once a day on my actual laptop and I've spent a lot of my time on my Pinterest as well as in my prayer journal. So here's an update on my life in the past 4 days:
Friday (New Years day): first day of my fast. I went shopping with my girlies & we went to my favorite restaurant, your pie. Yum. 
Saturday: day 2 of fast. We did some bridal things for my brothers fiancĂ©. We went to Nashville and looked at flowers and greenery and ate at a local rest yarn in town. We also found this perfect sunflower wall. 
Sunday: day 3 of fast! Boy, it's getting pretty tough not being on social media but we went to church and had Jason's deli for lunch :). After that we ran some errands and I took a nap before work. Later that night, my friend and I had some late night mcdondals. 

Monday: a day of rest. Watched a lot of Netflix hehe and went to work. 

Tuesday: babysitting. Oh me! 
We ended up at bounceU...


Things I've learned--- 1.Pinterest can be even more addictive when you're fasting from social media. 2. People don't understand why you're fasting. 3. Social media is almost needed in every day life... Seriously I've checked Facebook once day and always something I needed to know pops up. 4. My relationship with God and my prayer journal have increased greatly and I love it. 5. I feel like I NEED social media but my craving has lead me to spend more time talking to God & others. 

Friday, January 22, 2016

I had a Dream //

This week has been quite eventful. My best friend joined the army and this weekend was the last time I'll see him for a loooong time and I won't hear from him for about 9 weeks... He's off to basic training. Brian is now living out his life dream to do what is right for our country.
Please pray for his safety as he is gone and his family as they worry and miss him extremely, especially his sweet mama.

This weekend started out with a very fun sleepover with one of my forever friends. This girl resides out in California and she is also living out her life dream to be in the entertainment world and boy oh boy is she good at it! She was able to make it in this weekend to see all her friends, including me, and on Friday, she planned for us to have a slumber party. Side note: I'm not sure why on earth they're called sleepovers or slumber parties because NO ONE SLEEPS. Okay, back to the topic at hand... Marisa is a very busy girl so Friday night I went to her house around 10pm. She had texted me earlier and had told me to bring clothes to model in like I was a professional, she had gotten a new camera and was so excited to have a muse. So off I came with three outfits and we began. She was a professional. She even did my hair and make up at 2am, what a gem she is.

Saturday, we took a small road trip down to Chattanooga for the most beautiful wedding of my brothers best friend, Austin. It was lovely and the dance floor was a blast! We had the best time celebrating their marriage as we all share the dream to someday marry the love of our lives and we pray their's is blessed.

Sunday, we headed to church and lunch with my dad's parents and then packed up and headed to Alabama to see Brian off. We went to evening church services with them and wendy's for dinner. Then like always when at the Shaw house, we had tons of dessert, drank our weight in coffee and stayed up giggling and reminiscing into the wee hours of morning.

Monday, stayed for Brian's goodbye lunch and then headed back home to good ole Murfreesboro. Mom and I had been everywhere it felt like by the time we got home and it didn't end there. We had a ladies Bible study to wrap up the long weekend.

I am just so blessed by all my friendships and family. They all mean so much to me and I am beyond thankful for them all. I pray that everyone keeps their eyes on their dreams this year. Special thanks to MLK for the long weekend!
*** Please keep Brian, Marisa, and the newly weds "The Coley's" in your prayers.***
Xoxo, R.

Wednesday, December 30, 2015


Well 2016 sure did creep up on me.... A few weeks ago I decided that at the first of the year I would challenge myself by fasting from all types of social media for 21 days, (see pending social media fast for more details). As most of you know, I am addicted to twitter , instagram, and snapchat. I also really enjoy Facebook creeping and pinning random little things that will never happen in my life.
So heres the rules:

1. Absolutely no social media for 21 days. So, starting on Friday after the ball drops I will delete all my social media apps except Facebook messenger and my sorority stuff. I'm keeping these two because I have to know sorority dates, events, and meetings and this is the only way to do so (besides, I don't really use it unless someone post important info) and Facebook messenger is staying because I need it for my dog/babysitting business. A lot of my costumers contact me this way and I don'y want to miss a job opportunity. Oh, and I'll also have to check emails too when school starts back, but that isn't really social media anyways.

2.  Begins January 1st, 2016. Of course I'll most likely post one last picture on instagram explaining my fast with this blog link attached but after it is posted, ALL the apps will be gone.

3. Ends on January 22nd, 2016. This is the day I will re-download all the apps.

4. Focusing on God more and others. every time I get the erg to download my apps back, I will be turning to my Bible or finding a way to help someone else. This month is going to be SUPER busy anyways so who really has time for this social media?!?!?

Things going on during my fast:
-New Year's Eve party @ my house
-Samantha (my soon to be sister in law!!!) bachelorette weekend
-Austin's wedding (super close family friend)
-My bestie guy friend is going to basic training
-School starts back...

I think that is all. Leave comments or questions, I'd love to answer anything that you may want to ask! I am very excited about this but also anxious.... Also, any suggestions of things to focus on doing instead would be greatly appreciated.

Sunday, December 13, 2015

Pending Social Media Cleanse

  In January I plan to do a social media fast to focus more on God. I have decided it'll last 21 days, because that's how long it takes to break a habit. So no worries, I'll be back in time for the wedding. 
  I've heard of this before, but never really considered doing one. I was reading an article called 6 habits of Christians. It hit me then how much time I really do spend on social media. I check it when I first wake up, throughout the day when I'm bored, and spend hours at night pinning, tweeting, and liking endless photos. What if I focused all this time on God? 
  So starting in Janurary, every time I feel the erg to send a tweet or post an amazing Instagram picture, I'll head to my Bible instead. I'm hoping that this will be helpful. I know if I follow through, it will make for a much better life. I obsess over ever social media post. I get excited when I get a certain amount of likes or if I'm snapchatting a humorous video. However, I am very interested to see how my relationship with God grows. 
  During my fast, I will be checking only emails, text messages, phone calls, soroity post (so I know about meetings & events), and Facebook messenger for my dog, baby, and house sitting customers.
  Please wish me luck and pray for me that I stay devoted to my decisions. 

Monday, December 7, 2015

•Choose thankful•

I can't believe I've been so busy that I missed blogging about my favorite holiday: Thanksgiving. This year was definitely one to remember! We did our normal tradition like always but this year my good friend Christain got to join us. She's on of my closest friends that I've made at college and she is from out of state. She wasn't able to go home for thanksgiving because of timing and prices and I couldn't let her spend thanksgiving at the cafe so I invited her to join in on my families festivities. 

Like always, we set out to my grandma's (dad's mom) house early on thanksgiving morning. We usually all get there around noon and we have a nice lunch that she prepares. This year, I helped set the table, get the food out, and pass out pies. We also took some family photos for our Christmas card, as part of tradition. (I am a hard core stick-to-the-tradition person). 

After my dad's side is finished up, we all pack up in the car and head to my aunt and uncle's house for dinner. This side has a lot more children to take up the tables, fill the room with noise, and there is much much laughter. Before dinner even started the fun of the evening began with sliding down big hills, dancing to today's biggest hits, and then eating of course! Topped off with even more pictures. 
This is the only picture I have on my phone HAHA me and my baby cousin Will making silly faces. 

Anyways, I have so much to be thankful for after all, it is my favorite holiday for a reason. 

Can't go back, but you can look

As my third semester of college comes to a slow end, I have been reflecting over who I am, what I've learned, and where I am heading. Deep, I know. 

Who I am or am becoming: this semester has been very challenging for me and I'm not certain why. I started off the semester as a cheerleader, but those days ended faster than they started. After that, it all was a downward spiral. I'm not sad about it at all, everything happens for a reason & I was terrified to fly. And I know my mother was scared too. 

This semester I also took the hardest classes I've taken in a lonnnnnggg time. I've learned how to memorize and study harder than before, and PLAN. I've become a perfectionist. I plan everything. But it has made me who I am, and I enjoy planning out my days, weeks, and months. I carry my monogrammed Lilly Pulitzer planner with me almost everywhere. If I lost it, I wouldn't be able to function. Even with my planning obsession, I still find the time to majorly procrastinate. This semester I have been the worst about it. I don't know if it was because I didn't like my classes or if I just didn't really care but some how I managed to come out on top, with mostly A's & B's. 

This semester I became a teacher. I officially declared my major as child growth & learning aka elementary education with a minor in marketing because I love marketing and it could someday be useful. I am very excited to start next semester as an eduction major & see where my journey takes me. 

I've learned: life isn't always easier. In fact, it's hard. And most of the time you want to ignore all your responsibility and curl up in a ball, cry, or watch Netflix. I've learned that somedays you just need a coffee from Starbucks, an iccee from speedway, and chili cheese tots from sonic. And that its okay to do what you love. 

Where I'm headed: I don't know exactly but I'm on my way to be a teacher, get my masters, and one day have my own classroom. I also decided this semester that in the summer of 2016 I will be headed to hondurous for a week with my church family to spread God's word and I'm beyond excited for this adventure. Another exciting thing that I'm going to start over winter break is Bible journaling. Lately, I've been putting off studying my Bible and I think that journaling will help me to get back on track with where I want to be Spiritually.